on the Headphones: TEENAGE SPACESHIP
by Bill Callahan/smog
........Meanwhile, yesterday was one of those Queen Ant with Wings everywhere days.
You know. That intensely Synchronised Flying Ant eruption. Is it also Synchronised beyond London? Is it happening through the entire country on the same day? Is it perhaps a Euro-Simultaneous event?
and eXactly what kind of a wild and curious eXperience is it for those Emergent Queens?
I assume up till yesterday they've been permanently in the Dark Below Ground, born there and nurtured there by the Colony Workers.
And then this moment occurs, when they not only eXperience the world of Aboveness, and Day Light, Sun Light, but aswell as all that, they are FLYING too.
Flying, for fuck's sake.
and then its all over
and I guess their Wings drop off and they return to the Darkness Underground, Forever, but somewhere entirely new, and small, just the mere potential of a home.
And each new Queen is entirely alone for the first time ever.
and they're alone until they've hatched their first batch of Attendant Workers and the new Colony has begun. And then, once more, she is not alone, she is never ever alone again. She will eXperience the constant attendance of her devoted worker offspring, in that dark familiar underground, forever and a day.
and its also in my head that she is probably using a supply of sperm that she got during that single unique never-to-be-re-eXperienced moment, when she was Flying, in the Above World, in the Daylight.
her Maiden Flight.
and undoubtably, if you're going to eXperience the world of the Above, and of the Light, just Once in your whole eXistence, and all too briefly, PLUS it's also the one and only time you're going to get Fucked in your Entire Life, then there is possibly no better way imaginable than to eXperience it in its entirety with the aid of temporary Wings.
and just how many years does an Ant Queen generally continue living for, after all that? I'll have to look it up......
and does she ever recall or reconstruct memories from that brief strange moment when everything was utterly utterly unfamiliar for her?
When she sleeps does she Dream of that moment from her past, a moment which was quite literally....... Once (and only once) ...........Up ...........On ............a Time.