The other day there was a comment that introduced a triple cocktail of negative and belittling interpretive ideas, regarding my present state of being. The comment conjured up the notion that a child-like part of me might be having nightmares currently, and this was then emphasised by the question "I hope you are well?"
From my own perspective, when it seems so crushingly obvious that I passionately love existence and that I am generally quite contented, it always comes as a shock when I encounter an extreme misinterpretation of where I am at.
Obviously a very public self portrait project is going to manifest all manner of misconceptions about me as a person. That is all an inevitable part of the game. And other people's mistranslations of my work, or of my personal state of being, stimulates me to think about the topic. And thinking and attempting to be articulate are among my many favourite pleasures in life.
So here is a further attempt to clarify some of the dynamics at play here.
One person's meat is another person's poison.
One person's trash is another person's treasure.
One person's ceiling is another person's floor.
In today's daily self portrait, Russell has chosen to use some simple cheap white flour and cheap black waterbased paint on his face.
It is possible that for some of you, the combination of paint and flour with Russell's facial features might make you think of something scarey or sad or mad perhaps.
But the scarey or sad or mad thought belongs to you. It is your thought and it is about you, not Russell.
Your thought is nothing at all to do with how Russell is actually feeling, nor anything to do with Russell's own state of mind, and your thought is not an insight into any of Russell's motives for choosing to look like this in today's shot.
In Russell's reality, from where this portrait originates, Russell's choice to adorn himself with a combination of black paint and flour is exactly the same as when he looks in his wardrobe and chooses to wear a pale blue shirt, rather than a dark grey hoody today.
Furthermore, in Russell's eyes this portrait is a clear reflection of his general well being.